hey
its me again.
Just checking in for personal. I’m in love, my business is thriving, my friendships seem to be flourishing (the bad ones weeded themselves out) and honestly, i’ve gotten a lot closer to my family (i’m really going to miss them).
But why do I randomly get emotional sometimes and not know the reason why? Is something missing?
2 years clean of self harm today.
i’m so proud of you.
justin really wanted me to come to his video rehearsal tonight.
I really applaud him for always trying to get me out of bed so I don’t stay sad. but I wish I was at home crying in my own bed and not here in the parking lot.
“There’s a brief moment when you first wake up where you have no memories, a blissful blank slate, a happy emptiness, but it doesn’t last long and you remember exactly where you are and what you are trying to forget.”— Carrie Bradshaw, The Carrie Diaries (via hplyrikz)
hi old friend.
I constantly come back here when the outside world gets overwhelming. you always remind me of a secure space I held dear to me. maybe it’s a crippling cry for help and that i’m really growing up. Nonetheless, you make me feel safe. There’s been a huge shift in energy among myself and the people I care about, honestly, even the people who have made themselves my “enemies” when I am indifferent about them. I don’t speak to them obviously, but it truly feels everyone i’ve ever crossed paths with is being taken care of right now. In very mysterious and different ways, but the world is showing me that it will give back everything I put out. with that being said, my goal is to make this the last time I come back. Because maybe, just maybe if I can stop putting out these deep dark moments of anxiety and trauma
they’ll stop coming back.
Je suppose que je me mentirais aussi.
nooo don’t express serious emotions you’ve been designated “the funny one” aha
nooo don’t exist in a way that contradicts the one-dimensional version of you I’ve created in my head you’re so convenient aha
